Saturday, March 04, 2006
M N I????
since we r in the topic of guys n dreams....
hehehhe...
so funny... dat day i dreamt dat in my org ada orgnyer bdae on 6th mar. i wrote "bdae nyer m n i"
wen i woke up i dun remember having any frens whose bdae falls on 6th mar... i took it as a hint... u noe how my dreams reflect 80% of reality. so.... i kept tinking n tinking... i tot "m n i" cld be sum1's initial n cracked my head. so.... aft much tinking i tot... issit mirza??? coz his name is mirza narzulsyam bin ramlee.... bt wldnt dat be "m n r?" n i tot his bdae its either 4th may or 4th march coz i m quite sure his bdae falls on a 4th n the mth starts frm letter m. dun ask me how i remember this kinda ting, its my memory function.
so i asked linda wen is mirza's bdae? n she said... she tinks its 4th! wooohoooooooooo!!! see i told u my dream gives me hints! BIG HINTS!!!! heheheheh thank u dream...
ok... here's the ting... linda thinks i shld go tackle mirza... shld i?? i dunno..... bt i do miss him... i mean... i miss all the guys back in bk association...hhehehe... abang...evnur, sham, black, didi, kak lela, rini..basically the gang. we were so close.... wat happened... will i ever see them again??? i dunno....
bt for starters... i wld really like to see this "m n i" or "m n r"
again, pray hard for me...
ciaoz!!!!
Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 9:34 PM
Dream Come True???
I've been wanting to update this since monday bt damn! i've been bz bz bz... apologies....wat happened on monday 27th feb 2006?
almost a dream come true.
bt in the nt gd kinda way.
i left the office ard 6.10-6.20pm
n was super shocked wen i see this white mercedes van rite outside the building. face it there r thousands of them in s'pore bt sumhow i had a bad feeling....especially so wen it stopped rite at the traffic lite crossing that i usually use to walk home. SUCKER!
my heart was beating so fast n i was shivering like hell! (wic is funny coz hell is supposed to be hot rite..? hmm.....) i walked super slow.... super duper slow.... n slowly took put my mp3 n pretended to write sms in my hp. LIAR! as i did i step rite at the traffic lite, bt lucky me, once i reached, the traffic started to flow, since the van was first on the queue, obviously it had to move first.
at dat moment, i braved myself n looked up, consoling myself by saying wat the heck kin, it cld even not be him lah! bt as i looked up, i saw his face. dat stupid face. dat jerkass face. dat bitchified liar face. the face dat i hate. the face that will probly haunt me for the rest of my life.
even worse, he was looking at me. not just looking at me, bt looking at me like checking out whether it's really me kind of looking at me. n wen he realised it was me, he kept turning his back while driving. like really turned back....
i dunno y. y must he turn to look at me? its over. OVER. O.V.E.R kinda over. i hate it. i really hated that moment. i mean... i've been wanting to "terserempak" dengan dier, bt it's kinda planned kinda accidental. u noe wat i mean. not this kinda really accidental kinda accidental. its stupid. i was not prepared. obviously. n den i started to really menggigil satu badan wic i dunno y.
along said i'm stupid for nt doing anything. bt wat cn i do? diyana said he probly will always be there n i kinda get scared till the point of chging my timing n chging my route or following my colleagues. its stupid. i mean, y shld i hide again???? wat m i so scared of? isnt it a gd opportunity to meet him n ask him stuffs, hear stuffs, advise stuffs n haf a proper closure??? i dunno...
i m even more scared wen i realise dat mum dun mind me wif him. wic is so unreal. coz my mum's nt like dat. dia ni pakai ilmu apa ah dah pukau kan family aku? n i m freaked out dat according to linda n prebet, i still haf feelings for him. FEELINGS??? FEELING????!!! FEELING TAIK KUCING! i mean tk sempat pun nk feeling2... tk kan lah..... no... no... NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tp ntah eh.... i tink i m scared dat i will juz go weak one day n go against my greatest principle of life. i ges dat's wat really is. i dun wanna do it. bt i m scared dat i will end up doing it.
u see, the whole of my life, i get really good signs from my dreams... ya ya i noe... mimpi mainan tido n tkley percaya watsoever.... bt how to not percaya wen it happens all the time. there's a lot bt i shall NOT story here coz by the end of it we will reach year 3030.
briefly: i ever dreamt that he came to me n he did. i dreamt he was wif me, he did. amazingly so, wen i woke up from my sleep coz of the hp ringing while dreaming of him, n den realise it was him calling me. i dreamt his wife called. she did. so now wen i dream he came back.... i dun want dat to happen..... i used to tink it cn nvr be coz in my dream he uses my family to help him bt wen i realise dat my mother is stil very fond of him... i noe its time to freak out.
ok. maybe. i m juz really freaking out. i hope so. pray hard for me people. i need those xtra prayers. haiz............. now seeing a white mercedes van wif plate number 3162b (i tink so lah...... )will never be the same again......